So sick…
Ok! so I know that’s the title to a song but that’s exactly how I feel right now…
I feel like death warmed up, I feel like I have been whipped by a tornado and then slam dunked into a frenzy. I feel like mush doing summersaults…
They call it the flu and sinusitis but I call it furious pain driving a woman to insanity
I cant think of any other way to describe how I feel…
and now I’m going home
Adious
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Monday, February 26, 2007
When I die
When I die…
Ha, ha, ha that must have been the most riveting title I have ever written (Ok, maybe not!) So getting to the point, I finally decided what I want written on my tombstone when I die…
‘Here lies the sista who gave all and held back nothing. The one who lived life truly making a difference’
Quite big boots for my 18year old boots to fill… well lets just say I take it all or nothing. I don’t like being a mediocre person. So you will want to know what I mean by my words…
Why live life with nothing to show for it at the end? Why live life and only have offspring, a car, and a house to show for it at the end? Why live life purely trying to make ends meet? Why live life just for the sake of living?
I want to live life having made a difference to someone’s life, having left an impact in a community of people who will truly appreciate it. I want to live a life with no regrets. A life that when I get to heaven I will not have to search in a bag of useless material achievements that only looked good on paper with a shiny crest at the end, I want to live a life worth living.
Our generation is becoming very consumerist where it’s all about ‘me’, what ‘I’ can get out of it. Notice the thinking… ‘Me’, ‘I’, and generally ‘me’ again. My vision is it’s based around improving myself and pulling other people up as I go along.
I wish every one would catch up to this vision coz if we ( as in my generation) stop tramping on each other in our attempt to make it to the top then maybe we can improve our country, each other and we would all be happier for it.
In ending, it’s important that we look beyond that which we see in the scope life as we know it but look beyond that which is expected of us, beyond that which is normal and reach out for our visions and dreams. Its reality stories that are most astounding, imaginary normally stays just that- imaginary.
I will say it again, to those who do not carry my vision it might not make much sense but to the person who will be at the receiving end of my vision it will make the world of a difference...
Dream on dreamers don’t let anybody tell you any different!
Lots of love… Sistagirl
Ha, ha, ha that must have been the most riveting title I have ever written (Ok, maybe not!) So getting to the point, I finally decided what I want written on my tombstone when I die…
‘Here lies the sista who gave all and held back nothing. The one who lived life truly making a difference’
Quite big boots for my 18year old boots to fill… well lets just say I take it all or nothing. I don’t like being a mediocre person. So you will want to know what I mean by my words…
Why live life with nothing to show for it at the end? Why live life and only have offspring, a car, and a house to show for it at the end? Why live life purely trying to make ends meet? Why live life just for the sake of living?
I want to live life having made a difference to someone’s life, having left an impact in a community of people who will truly appreciate it. I want to live a life with no regrets. A life that when I get to heaven I will not have to search in a bag of useless material achievements that only looked good on paper with a shiny crest at the end, I want to live a life worth living.
Our generation is becoming very consumerist where it’s all about ‘me’, what ‘I’ can get out of it. Notice the thinking… ‘Me’, ‘I’, and generally ‘me’ again. My vision is it’s based around improving myself and pulling other people up as I go along.
I wish every one would catch up to this vision coz if we ( as in my generation) stop tramping on each other in our attempt to make it to the top then maybe we can improve our country, each other and we would all be happier for it.
In ending, it’s important that we look beyond that which we see in the scope life as we know it but look beyond that which is expected of us, beyond that which is normal and reach out for our visions and dreams. Its reality stories that are most astounding, imaginary normally stays just that- imaginary.
I will say it again, to those who do not carry my vision it might not make much sense but to the person who will be at the receiving end of my vision it will make the world of a difference...
Dream on dreamers don’t let anybody tell you any different!
Lots of love… Sistagirl
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Get a friend! Getta chit chat!
Get a friend! Getta chit chat!
I can think of very few things that I would rather do after a hard day at work.
Getting on that telecommunication device called a cell phone and ringing my girlz!
Who else can be that voice
- like the one you sometimes hear within yourself and you try to ignore?
Who else tells you exactly what you don’t want to hear exactly when you need to hear it
Well that’s my girls for you
We have a bond that’s thicker than blood,
And to be real to ourselves we don’t have to profess to be from any hood
We share good and bad times
And we are very much a tailor made family.
One thing I can say about friends is that they are good for you - especially in large doses
Friends should trust each other
Friends should look out for one another
Friends get you talking and when you do you get to know each other more and more
Midge, Fafie, and Bush (the homegirlz)
Then there’s KB, and Jboo (my vanilla sisters – I’m their dollop of chocolate on the side)
What more can I ask for.
Friendships are chit chat sessions that have withstood the test of time
Friendships are what we do between life and death
Friendships are for real – if they aren’t, well then, they’re not friendships
Have a friend, but most importantly be a friend!
I can think of very few things that I would rather do after a hard day at work.
Getting on that telecommunication device called a cell phone and ringing my girlz!
Who else can be that voice
- like the one you sometimes hear within yourself and you try to ignore?
Who else tells you exactly what you don’t want to hear exactly when you need to hear it
Well that’s my girls for you
We have a bond that’s thicker than blood,
And to be real to ourselves we don’t have to profess to be from any hood
We share good and bad times
And we are very much a tailor made family.
One thing I can say about friends is that they are good for you - especially in large doses
Friends should trust each other
Friends should look out for one another
Friends get you talking and when you do you get to know each other more and more
Midge, Fafie, and Bush (the homegirlz)
Then there’s KB, and Jboo (my vanilla sisters – I’m their dollop of chocolate on the side)
What more can I ask for.
Friendships are chit chat sessions that have withstood the test of time
Friendships are what we do between life and death
Friendships are for real – if they aren’t, well then, they’re not friendships
Have a friend, but most importantly be a friend!
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
If it doesn't kill you
"If it doesn’t kill you it can only make you stronger"
So many times we ask God why.
Why did this have to happen to me?
Why me? Well I might just have the answer.
Quite often the whys’? we ask are because we are going through something tough and we feel that life just isn’t fair.
Well do I have news for you…
Be grateful for your hard experiences firstly cos God will never give you a burden bigger than you can handle. When we going through a hard patch we need to go through it deal with it and get over hence we arrive at the other end of the passage stronger than when we entered it.
Going through a horrible experience and getting over it can help you help someone whois not as strong as yourself get through it at a later stage.
Hardship is like a bug. It will make you sick , but then your body builds a remedy for it and then slowly you recover. After that your body will always know how to handle it where it to enter your body again.
Be encouraged in the fact that you are strong for overcoming, that hardship you overcame
,unfortunately someone else couln’t. they thought it was too hard.
I asked God why we have to go through these hard things and the answer was quite clear for me.
In me overcoming my circumstance God was Glorified. Through him we are more than conquerors. In overcoming my circumstance I add another coat of steel to armour.
Here’s my last words of encouragement for today,
Don’t look so sad, Don’t look so down
Look up and hold your chin up high.
Today you may be walking in mud trying to keep yourself together
But tomorrow you will be flying high and you will be anothers hero.
Be happy rejoice in today because tomorrow it will be no more
and yesterdays failures will be a thing of the past and lessons for the next day.
You are strong, you will survive
I did.
You will.
So many times we ask God why.
Why did this have to happen to me?
Why me? Well I might just have the answer.
Quite often the whys’? we ask are because we are going through something tough and we feel that life just isn’t fair.
Well do I have news for you…
Be grateful for your hard experiences firstly cos God will never give you a burden bigger than you can handle. When we going through a hard patch we need to go through it deal with it and get over hence we arrive at the other end of the passage stronger than when we entered it.
Going through a horrible experience and getting over it can help you help someone whois not as strong as yourself get through it at a later stage.
Hardship is like a bug. It will make you sick , but then your body builds a remedy for it and then slowly you recover. After that your body will always know how to handle it where it to enter your body again.
Be encouraged in the fact that you are strong for overcoming, that hardship you overcame
,unfortunately someone else couln’t. they thought it was too hard.
I asked God why we have to go through these hard things and the answer was quite clear for me.
In me overcoming my circumstance God was Glorified. Through him we are more than conquerors. In overcoming my circumstance I add another coat of steel to armour.
Here’s my last words of encouragement for today,
Don’t look so sad, Don’t look so down
Look up and hold your chin up high.
Today you may be walking in mud trying to keep yourself together
But tomorrow you will be flying high and you will be anothers hero.
Be happy rejoice in today because tomorrow it will be no more
and yesterdays failures will be a thing of the past and lessons for the next day.
You are strong, you will survive
I did.
You will.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
HOPEFUL
TWISTA (f/ Faith Evans) LYRICS Hope
[Verse 1 (Twista)]I wish the way I was living could stop, serving rocks,
Knowing the cops is hot when I'm on the block,
And IWish my brother woulda made bail,
So I won't have to travel 6 hours to see him in jail,
And IWish that my grandmother wasn't sick,
Or that we would just come up on some stacks and hit a lick,
And I (I wish)Wish my homies wouldn't have to suffer,
When the streets get the upper hand on us and we lose a brother,
And IWish I could go deep in a zone,
And lift the spirits of the world with the words with in this song,
And I (I wish)Wish I could teach a soul to fly,
Take away the pain out cha hands and help you hold them hi,
And IWish my hommie Butch was still alive
And on the day of his death we had never took that ride,
And I (I wish)Wish God could protect us from the wrong
So that all the solders that were sent over seas come home
We will never break, though they devastate, we shall motivate,
And we gotta pray, all we got is faith.
Instead of thinking about who gonna die to day
,The Lord is gonna help you feel better, so you ain't gotta cry today.
Sit at the light so long,
And then we gotta move straight forward, cuz we fight so strong,
So when right go wrong,
Just say a little prayer, get ya money man, life go on!!!
Let's HOPE!
[Chorus (Faith Evans)]
Cuz I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use itLet it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay.cause we hopeful
[Verse 2 (Twista)]I wish that you could show some love,
Instead of hatin so much when you see some other people commin up (I wish)
I wish I could teach the world to sing,
Watch the music and have 'em trippin of the joy I bring, (shiit)
I wish that we could hold hands,Listen instead of dissin lessons from a grown man,
And I (I wish)Wish the families that lack, but got love, get some stacks
Brand new shack and a lack that's on dubs,
And IWish we could keep achieving wonders,
See the vision of the world through the eyes of Stevie Wonder, (you feel me) (I wish)
And I hope all the kids eat,And don't nobody in my family see six feet, (ya dig)
I hope them mothers stain' strong,
You can make it whether you wit him or your mans gone,
And I (I wish)Wish I could give every celly some commissary,
And the po po bring the heat on them priest like they did R. Kelly,
And IWish that DOC could scream again
And bullets could reverse so Pac and Biggie breath again, (shit) (I wish)
Then one day they could speak again,
I wish that we only saw good news every time we look at CNN,
I wish that we could never get the blues,
Wish I could bring back the people that died,
Eddy tooI wish that we could walk a path, stay doin the right thing
Hustle hard so the kids maintain up in the game,
Let's HOPE
[Chorus (Faith Evans)]
Cuz I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay.cause we hopeful
[Verse 3 (Twista)]
Wish the earth wasn't so apocalyptic,
I try to spread my message to the world the best way I can give it,
We can make it always so optimistic,
If you don't listen gotta live my life the best way I can live it,
I pray for justice when we go to court,
Wish it was all good so the country never even went to war
Why can't we kick it and just get em on,
And in the famous words of Mr. King "Why can't we all just get along",
Or we can find a better way to shop and please,
And IHope we find a better way to cop a keys,
And IWish everybody would just stop and freeze,
And ask way are we fulfillin these downfalls and prophecies,
You can be wrong if it's you doubting,
With the faith of a mustard seed you can move mountains,
And only the heavenly father and ease the hurt,
Just let it go and keep prayin on your knees in church!!
And let's HOPE
[Chorus (Faith Evans) X2]
Cuz I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay.
cause we hopeful
[Verse 1 (Twista)]I wish the way I was living could stop, serving rocks,
Knowing the cops is hot when I'm on the block,
And IWish my brother woulda made bail,
So I won't have to travel 6 hours to see him in jail,
And IWish that my grandmother wasn't sick,
Or that we would just come up on some stacks and hit a lick,
And I (I wish)Wish my homies wouldn't have to suffer,
When the streets get the upper hand on us and we lose a brother,
And IWish I could go deep in a zone,
And lift the spirits of the world with the words with in this song,
And I (I wish)Wish I could teach a soul to fly,
Take away the pain out cha hands and help you hold them hi,
And IWish my hommie Butch was still alive
And on the day of his death we had never took that ride,
And I (I wish)Wish God could protect us from the wrong
So that all the solders that were sent over seas come home
We will never break, though they devastate, we shall motivate,
And we gotta pray, all we got is faith.
Instead of thinking about who gonna die to day
,The Lord is gonna help you feel better, so you ain't gotta cry today.
Sit at the light so long,
And then we gotta move straight forward, cuz we fight so strong,
So when right go wrong,
Just say a little prayer, get ya money man, life go on!!!
Let's HOPE!
[Chorus (Faith Evans)]
Cuz I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use itLet it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay.cause we hopeful
[Verse 2 (Twista)]I wish that you could show some love,
Instead of hatin so much when you see some other people commin up (I wish)
I wish I could teach the world to sing,
Watch the music and have 'em trippin of the joy I bring, (shiit)
I wish that we could hold hands,Listen instead of dissin lessons from a grown man,
And I (I wish)Wish the families that lack, but got love, get some stacks
Brand new shack and a lack that's on dubs,
And IWish we could keep achieving wonders,
See the vision of the world through the eyes of Stevie Wonder, (you feel me) (I wish)
And I hope all the kids eat,And don't nobody in my family see six feet, (ya dig)
I hope them mothers stain' strong,
You can make it whether you wit him or your mans gone,
And I (I wish)Wish I could give every celly some commissary,
And the po po bring the heat on them priest like they did R. Kelly,
And IWish that DOC could scream again
And bullets could reverse so Pac and Biggie breath again, (shit) (I wish)
Then one day they could speak again,
I wish that we only saw good news every time we look at CNN,
I wish that we could never get the blues,
Wish I could bring back the people that died,
Eddy tooI wish that we could walk a path, stay doin the right thing
Hustle hard so the kids maintain up in the game,
Let's HOPE
[Chorus (Faith Evans)]
Cuz I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay.cause we hopeful
[Verse 3 (Twista)]
Wish the earth wasn't so apocalyptic,
I try to spread my message to the world the best way I can give it,
We can make it always so optimistic,
If you don't listen gotta live my life the best way I can live it,
I pray for justice when we go to court,
Wish it was all good so the country never even went to war
Why can't we kick it and just get em on,
And in the famous words of Mr. King "Why can't we all just get along",
Or we can find a better way to shop and please,
And IHope we find a better way to cop a keys,
And IWish everybody would just stop and freeze,
And ask way are we fulfillin these downfalls and prophecies,
You can be wrong if it's you doubting,
With the faith of a mustard seed you can move mountains,
And only the heavenly father and ease the hurt,
Just let it go and keep prayin on your knees in church!!
And let's HOPE
[Chorus (Faith Evans) X2]
Cuz I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay.
cause we hopeful
Monday, February 19, 2007
Women of virtue
This is for all those females I know who keep on holding the fort
besides all odds...be strong,
Find your identity in who you are not in your circumstance
Find your identity in who God has designed you to be...
Woman Of Virtue
She is a woman of virtue and a daughter of eve,
She has been through lifes ridicule, barely even finished school
She has been through suppression – She has felt depression
She is a daughter of eve, the ideal woman
A woman of today and tomorrow
Who has been through yesterday
Oh hail the woman who bore your children-
Your children who hold the future
Made from mans side to be close to him
That one rib that became the backbone of all ages
That constant figure of strength
Oh hail the women who gathered her tears, and yours
And provided a spring of life
This woman that is in her, her, her, me and you.
Zamezinhle ‘2007
besides all odds...be strong,
Find your identity in who you are not in your circumstance
Find your identity in who God has designed you to be...
Woman Of Virtue
She is a woman of virtue and a daughter of eve,
She has been through lifes ridicule, barely even finished school
She has been through suppression – She has felt depression
She is a daughter of eve, the ideal woman
A woman of today and tomorrow
Who has been through yesterday
Oh hail the woman who bore your children-
Your children who hold the future
Made from mans side to be close to him
That one rib that became the backbone of all ages
That constant figure of strength
Oh hail the women who gathered her tears, and yours
And provided a spring of life
This woman that is in her, her, her, me and you.
Zamezinhle ‘2007
Friday, February 16, 2007
Memories of Gogo
This letter is for my gran ma…
Gogo if there is internet in heaven this is for you…
Gogo,
I see you sitting there, that dark brown image in the heavens,
Your face radiant with peaceful glory.
How hard you toiled whilst still on this earth
How big was your hart to carry us all
How deep were your wrinkles so full of wisdom
How big was your smile full of promises
How soft was your voice full of encouragement
How strong your hands that disciplined me into who I am
Remember TV bars when they were still red and blue
Remember the TV you broke with your shoe
Remember jelly tots -With sugar on top
Remember me not wanting the hat for my picture – nor did I wear a top
Remember you singing me lullaby’s – out of tune oh I did not care
Remember my embarrassing moments – oh with your church friends you had to share
I remember…
Sometimes I wish you were still here
Sometimes I can smell your scent on my jersey
Sometimes I can see you in the reflection in my mirror
Sometimes you are in my dreams
Things have happened since you have gone
Things have happened that make me wish you were still here
You always told me to be a strong woman
You forgot o tell me womanhood was so hard,
uZamezihnle has had to grow into a woman not wholly by choice
I have tried my hardest to be the woman of your vision, the woman with her voice
Maybe I need to settle to be the girl of my dreams - for now anyway
Maybe I can put womanhood away for a little longer…
There’s this picture of you on my desk
You are wearing your uniform… (Remember red marching soldiers on their way to church)
I see in your eyes a world of experiences, not all of them easy
I see in your brow sweat, sweat that I saw on mine yesterday
Maybe we are not all that different.
Gogo you were a woman of overcoming
Well maybe I see me in you
For all your love I will be the woman you had in your vision I would be
The gift you gave of Zamezinhle ( try my beauty, try more beautiful things)
Hold on tight Gogo.
The heavens are about to shake with the conviction in my heart
The world has never seen this before …
Thank you for the vision that will lead me straight home
Thank you for the love you gave me…
Lalakhahle Ngwane ‘lihle ( rest in peace beautiful Ngwane)
In my memories you will always be…
‘Zamezinhle 2007’
Gogo if there is internet in heaven this is for you…
Gogo,
I see you sitting there, that dark brown image in the heavens,
Your face radiant with peaceful glory.
How hard you toiled whilst still on this earth
How big was your hart to carry us all
How deep were your wrinkles so full of wisdom
How big was your smile full of promises
How soft was your voice full of encouragement
How strong your hands that disciplined me into who I am
Remember TV bars when they were still red and blue
Remember the TV you broke with your shoe
Remember jelly tots -With sugar on top
Remember me not wanting the hat for my picture – nor did I wear a top
Remember you singing me lullaby’s – out of tune oh I did not care
Remember my embarrassing moments – oh with your church friends you had to share
I remember…
Sometimes I wish you were still here
Sometimes I can smell your scent on my jersey
Sometimes I can see you in the reflection in my mirror
Sometimes you are in my dreams
Things have happened since you have gone
Things have happened that make me wish you were still here
You always told me to be a strong woman
You forgot o tell me womanhood was so hard,
uZamezihnle has had to grow into a woman not wholly by choice
I have tried my hardest to be the woman of your vision, the woman with her voice
Maybe I need to settle to be the girl of my dreams - for now anyway
Maybe I can put womanhood away for a little longer…
There’s this picture of you on my desk
You are wearing your uniform… (Remember red marching soldiers on their way to church)
I see in your eyes a world of experiences, not all of them easy
I see in your brow sweat, sweat that I saw on mine yesterday
Maybe we are not all that different.
Gogo you were a woman of overcoming
Well maybe I see me in you
For all your love I will be the woman you had in your vision I would be
The gift you gave of Zamezinhle ( try my beauty, try more beautiful things)
Hold on tight Gogo.
The heavens are about to shake with the conviction in my heart
The world has never seen this before …
Thank you for the vision that will lead me straight home
Thank you for the love you gave me…
Lalakhahle Ngwane ‘lihle ( rest in peace beautiful Ngwane)
In my memories you will always be…
‘Zamezinhle 2007’
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