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I know I haven’t written in a week. But I didn’t want to subject you to something written out of need to write it had to be for a reason. Today I woke up and I had a very good reason to write. I have had a lot of things on my mind lately…..
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So often we know what we want in life. We know where we want to go and we think we know how we are going to get there. So in my thinking lately I realised that I actually don’t have myself psyched out to the core. There is a lot about myself I am actually still trying to discover. Not that I am insecure or anything, Its just that there is a lot about myself that I am learning. I unconsciously realised this when I first started putting my thoughts to paper. Read my profile “Who am I”.
I am constantly growing and changing everyday – for the better. Everyday I go to sleep and I have learnt something new from my experiences gone by. Lately I have taken on more responsibility of things that happen in my life. I decided I don’t want to be the damsel who everything bad in life happened to in life and never quite got over it. I cant blame the world for all the rubbish it has thrown my way, ( I cant dwell on it forever and not make anything of my self because of it. Then it would have ‘power’ over me), just like I can’t blame anyone for some of the wrong decisions I have made in the past. I don’t regret any relationships- I have only learnt from them. I have learnt that true friends are people who love you not only with their words but with their actions. Some people find it very easy to say ‘I love you’ but in fact when having to act on their words –they can’t.
In that breath here is an observation – In the movie ‘A knights Tale’ the heartthrob tells the princess he will win the competition just for her! But the sister had her brains screwed on tight. As a knight it is in his blood and his nature to want to win the jousting tournament. He would not be sacrificing anything at all actually! So our clever beauty says “If want to show me how much you love me you would lose this match for me’ (major paraphrasing there! You see for Mr. Charming losing the match was not only detrimental to his ego, it could also fatally wound him……….To say the least he proved his love for her. So here is the observation. Words can be easy to say.. but they don’t matter. I have summed up that I don’t need those relationships based on word value. They don’t help me any and the sure do waste the breathe of the person saying them. So for their sake and for mine some things are much better gone unsaid. Like I said there are no regrets. That which has happened has happened and that which was done was done. That which was taken was taken and can never be returned – I have learnt that.

So from now on. It’s the words met by actions that determine where ‘we’ stand. I love being Single cos frankly I can learn most of this lesson from a distance. Its taken me a while to come up with this conclusion. As for those friends and family and others who are only but resounding empty vessels – Monica says it well when she says “I rather be alone then be unhappy”
As for myself I don’t ever want to be the person with words and no action so I commit myself to being true to my words.
I love deeply.
I love whole heartedly,
my currency weighs in all I have to give.
So that’s all I had on my mind for today
PS: Laxa read the blog titled ‘Datable’. Then ponder!

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Blondiwe