Latest trend to hit South African streets!!!!

Latest trend to hit South African streets!!!!
First the 2010 construction workers laid the path after it had been less trampled on for a while, and then the transport people gave it a test drive. Doctors came to aid the cause, and the municipal workers had a go (at the expense of the national funds of course). Textile industry employees wore the jacket of honour too. Telkom is busy at it now (I guess we can’t say break down in communication in the same sentence, can we?), and now Eskom is set to fuel this growing craze!
Now all of us regular fashionistas know that the way to get a fad out is to take one big dose of it. Everyone doing it at the same time and in no time at all everyone is sick of it, and we move on to newer things... Just a thought


Zamz' 2009

Gear Shift.

Have you ever been in a moment and from a very random but sincere place in your mind – a penny drops?
You get that thought that realization that you are selling yourself short?

Well it’s time for a GEAR SHIFT!
It’s time to step up a notch and move into the right lane. Old mentalities are like worn tires. They don’t take well and they can put your life in danger. How long will we persist in living life in old models when the spunky new version (the truth) is staring us right in the face.
We have been called to greater things. We have absolutely no need to settle for second best.

It is in us to be great. Yes! Us! We are children of the most high! In him we are more than conquerors! Although our character is constantly under construction we are valuable!

Now I’m not saying we need to walk around with our heads in the clouds totally oblivious to the reality of our lives, but I say we need to maintain the attitude that we are worth it! We can attain that which we seek and reach for. As long as we keep God in our drivers’ seat, we are assured safe travel and arrival at our destination.

I’m taking up my new model and I plan to kick into drive and let God do the rest. His navigation system is far better than mine. He knows my destination. He knows where I need improve on my sharp turns and he helps me around the bends.

So what is this great thought?
I AM – who I am
I WILL BE – whatever I need to be
I AM – loved.

“He who is in me is greater than he that is in the world”

Feel the love.

Skid Marks

Skid marks…

You cruised into my ring
And drove through my walls
Like an obliging citizen you kept coins in my meter
Paying your toll on my lane – Until you stopped

You spun along for a while
Coming round my way
Dropping by everyday
Became a regular you did – Until you stopped

You used to screech to a halt by my place
I knew the sound of your tyres
You left tread marks on my curb,
On your way out – Until you stopped

When I look around all I see are your tracks
Shattered window glass
Your skid marks on my turf

But my track has undergone reconstruction
And you need to really be on your way now
Dust your shoes…
Pick up your keys
Rev your engine
And be gone
… You don’t belong here
… oh and pickup your bumper on your way out – It don’t compliment my swag


Zamezinhle ‘2009

One Echo

I was asked to compose a poem for a friend of mine for the inside of a wedding program... Its not often when it just falls in place - First time round:)

One Echo

Like sea shells gathered on a sun kissed beach
Echo me a song of love
Echo me a promise of forever
Echo me a pray for joy everlasting
And when all is done hold my hand

Like sea shells frolicking on constant waters
Be my love as I am your beloved
Be the glimmer in my eye whenever I see you
Be the North Star that will forever guide me home
Be mine

So as sea shells gather on sun kissed beaches
And frolick on constant waters
Today I make my love made known,
My intricate engravings here echo my solemn word
Two sea shells, One echo
Our Love


By Zamezinhle‘08

Heads Up!

Heads Up!
Well , well, well, There she is
Lady of her own, Shaken – not broken
Standing, even if its on a limp foot
Smiling in spite of the thorn in her side
Real because she lives, She has survived
Life didn’t finish her , She lives
Love failed her, but she still resists the disappointment
The temptation to fold over , and give up

Purpose drives her, love inspires her
And dispite life’s toll
She exsists, pursists, loves, lives
She may be you, She may be me…true
Woman you are strong, and someone needs you to survive, Phambili!
It’s the only way
One love, One chance, One live
To inspire, to change, to motivate and to make great, an exsistence

To the dry soil that gave birth to us, to the storms that shoke us
And the meteors that tried to smoother us
We are stronger, refined and wise round about now
So like a cowering dog with its tail between its legs
Negativity be gone, sadness you have no home here
And your memory is buried so deep within the foundations of our dreams of empires
that your snout could never imagine to see that light
She is taking hold now…

Woman take hold of what is yours
Your dreams, your life, your pride and self worth
You are a Queen, a survivor, an inspiration
Heads Up fellas ..this one is a keeper

Written: Zamezinhle Ngwane ‘08

Sisters of Hope

Sisters of hope


It has been a long haul to the new year
So I would just like to dedicate this following poem I wrote to all my sistaz who had a tough year last year.
2008 is going to be a fresh year…embrace it and remember… time heals most wounds,

To the sister who struggled to be free,
To the sister who didn’t have a voice,
To the sister who was scared too go home,
To the sister who couldn’t sleep,
To the sister who couldn’t find love
To the sister who didn’t have faith
To the sister who was hurt

Arise sisters who survive, divaz of destiney, women of worth. There’s hope.

Hope that our shackles can be broken
Hope that we can find our voice and be heard
Hope that home will be where the heart is and the heart is drawn to family
Hope that we will find rest in our inner most being
Hope that love has found us already
Hope that faith knows us by name,
Hope brings healing it brings joy, embrace it
Hope was born in us and it has brought us here. We have survived, we have traveled that road.

We are hopeful for tomorrow because we have survived through yesterday, live through today and have a vision for tomorrow.

Lots of love

Zamezinhle ‘08

laying it down!

There is no day better than today for rhythmn and rhyme
Poetry and flowetry
there's no day better than today for imagination overide
Conservation subside
lets lay it down for the world to enjoy
to show love to those that our charms employ
I'm done with the rhyming ..Now I 'm gonna lay it like a brick
They aint gonna know what made my head tick
When i'm through with this
they wont be calling me a chick...
Word!!

As for me and my house................

As for me and my house we will ………..Live

Life is the gift of love the gift of healing

The gift of sharing and the gift of caring

Life truly lived means I have to learn to forgive.

Life is me …naturally


As for me and my house we will……….. Love

Love is seeing the worst but cherishing the best

Love is the extra hand the extra time

Love is the reason behind this rhyme

Love is not just a feeling one cant express




As for me and my house we will……….. Laugh

Laugh at the memories created

Laugh at the lessons learnt

Laugh at life , laugh at love

Laugh coz it holds back the tears




As for me and my house we will…..

Live like we never lived , just because life is worth living

Love like there's no tomorrow just in case there isn't

Laugh like its not even just to hold back the tears…




So to life, love and laughter we splurge ourselves

Cos to anything else we would be slaves,

And that we are not! and should never be

We are free…

Even in our misery

We live, we love , we laugh

And life goes on..

So we have no choice but rock on!

Cos we can…

Who paints the sky blue?

Who paints the sky blue?


ever hue that kisses the sky
my every move that splashes the dye
my ever emotion expressed
across the sky my choices are stretched
my every thought or dream ever dreamt

who paints the sky blue
its me. its you
with every move we imitate
with every word that emanates
with every emotion left derelict
across the sky.. our view..
our every expectation...
the sky is so blue
just because we know it to be true

The sky is our world
created by you and I
It’s here we live and where we will die
the sky is our expectation
our limitation
our own creation

We paint the sky blue.
You and I.

For the Sake of Sanity

This is for a lady close to my heart,
This is my way of showing my empathy… I am not too good with saying things out loud sometimes but I have found my voice with a pen and a paper in my hand, I pray you will understand…


For the Sake of Sanity

For the sake of Sanity I chose not to cry
I chose not to die,
For the sake of sanity I forget that day
And I continue to sincerely pray,
For the sake of sanity I close my eyes as a tear drops
I bow lift my head and think of mountain tops,
For the sake of sanity I work hard
And I press so hard…
I nearly break this lead
Honestly- some things are easier said,

Have faith, tomorrow will be a better day
I know that’s the right thing to say,
But is it really?
For all the pain, for all the drain
As thinking is too tiring,
And those invasive tears now piling…
A puddle on your lap
Only time has the switch for the raging tap…

For the sake of sanity I chose to smile
To put a ray of sunshine on your dial,
For the sake of sanity I chose to love
Just as our heavenly father up above,
I choose to live, and to forgive

For the sake of sanity I chose to write
And with a pen and paper to fight the fight, (the battle of wills inside me)
I chose to exercise my right…
To remain silent… we know that there is a higher power who will take our stand
For now... it’s for me to sit down
And simply hold your hand…

The only other thing I can say besides the words I wrote in this poem is the old children’s Sunday school song…

“He’s got the whole world in his hands….”

Another Marilyn Manroe

Oh man…

See her, uh huh…

High heels clicking on the side walk

Hair swish swaying with the wind

Smile as bright as the sun

Voice as charming as breaking waters



Watch her as she gathers her bellowing dress around her legs

Scandalous…..

Watch her as she brings out her charm

Dazzling them out of their socks

Watch her as she salutes them with a wave

They resistance crumbles




Oh man…

See her, Um mmh

Sneakers bouncing off the pavement

Braids swish swaying to the beat

Smile as bright as the sun

Voice as harmonious, rhythmical as the drums




Watch her as she bumps to the beat

Youngstaz!

Watch her as she gathers the crowds

Wowing them with her soundz

Getting them into a dancing frenzy

Watch her as she salutes them with a 'Holla!"

The crowd roars….




She is the Goddess of her time

The reason behind every rhyme

She is the life that resounds deep within

She is the memory that will forever live



She is the Diva

She is the Sista

She is me…


Or maybe…

Just another Marilyn Monroe

Today you died!

This is for those who woke up one morning and realiesd it was over,
There is life after death has come and gone... live on!



Today you died...

Yesterday you had a chance,
Yesterday you could have had it all,
Yesterday you could have loved me,
Yesterday was a good day you know,
Yesterday you could have…
Yesterday you should have…
You didn’t


Today you looked at me for the last time,
Today you saw my tears for the last time,
Today you hurt me for the last time,
Today you took your last breath in my life and you left,
Today you where cremated in the burning flames of my hurt ,
Your ashes where shed far behind me,
Today I kissed you goodbye… You didn’t kiss me back

Tomorrow will be a new day
Tomorrow will be a good one
Tomorrow I will smile
Tomorrow there will be no resurrection
Tomorrow you won’t be there
Tomorrow there will be new hope for me
Tomorrow my life will go on

I am not surprised, because…
Today you died!

The Chic Diva Welcomes You

Below is a poem I wrote quite a while ago now, last year to be precise.
Its when i first realised what a big part of my life self expression played. Straight after writtingthis i painted what is probably one of the best painting i have ever painted...
here i realise who i am and who i seem to be... wel lets just say that we all grow to learn more about ourselves everyday.
I feel I am correct to say i have fallen in love with me. Thats probably the best thing someone can do for themselves.

So with this simple poem I give a big up to the music that inspires us, the voices that teach us, the beats that move us and last US. We are more than just perfect versus over tyt beats....


The Chic Diva Welcomes You

Welcome to the Afrocentric Cosmos
This is a queendom, a domain of royal rule
Herein resides a Princess, a Diva
Welcome to the land where African meets Euro
The perfect balance of both
Which had bought forth a child
A symbol of her generation
A tragedy of the previous

Herein lies a testimony once scorned
But now radiates in the joy freely given

Herein lies a something waiting to emerge into a big thing
Embrace her for she loves you
She loves you as she too is loved

Enter into a land where colour denotes bright hues
Of green, yellow, orange, pink
Where black and white where simply the main ingredients to a grey
Welcome to the land that loves purity
And doesn’t only pay lip service to it

Welcome to the land that sees women of virtue
Arise from children of suffering
A land that sees joy and love ooze from a war torn generation

I am the land of which I speak
I am the wound that’s healed
I welcome you to me because I love you

I am the Chic Diva that welcomes you

Mind Games #1:BREATHE

Here is the beauty of poetry once again, that which is said is not always what is. but that which is said is also - just that!

Mind Games #1: BREATHE


Hello? Hello?
Any body there?
What is this place?
Of shattered hope?
Of broken hearts?
It’s so cold here, and it stinks of fear

Hello? Hello?
Anybody here?
Why am I here?
Where is my home?
Scattered memories, and dusty smiles

To this place I sure don’t belong!
Can’t breathe!

Where are the windows here?
Where is the exit here?
This is not claustrophobic fun…

Come on! Someone
Where is the sun?
I am choking, choking
This place is so familiar…
NO!
This place is so strange…


In the dusty labyrinth of my body, I am trapped; life doesn’t live here any more,
I need to BREATHE!

Zamezinhle'07

Just read!

Speak Out!
I know I haven’t written in a week. But I didn’t want to subject you to something written out of need to write it had to be for a reason. Today I woke up and I had a very good reason to write. I have had a lot of things on my mind lately…..
(what’s new! )

So often we know what we want in life. We know where we want to go and we think we know how we are going to get there. So in my thinking lately I realised that I actually don’t have myself psyched out to the core. There is a lot about myself I am actually still trying to discover. Not that I am insecure or anything, Its just that there is a lot about myself that I am learning. I unconsciously realised this when I first started putting my thoughts to paper. Read my profile “Who am I”.
I am constantly growing and changing everyday – for the better. Everyday I go to sleep and I have learnt something new from my experiences gone by. Lately I have taken on more responsibility of things that happen in my life. I decided I don’t want to be the damsel who everything bad in life happened to in life and never quite got over it. I cant blame the world for all the rubbish it has thrown my way, ( I cant dwell on it forever and not make anything of my self because of it. Then it would have ‘power’ over me), just like I can’t blame anyone for some of the wrong decisions I have made in the past. I don’t regret any relationships- I have only learnt from them. I have learnt that true friends are people who love you not only with their words but with their actions. Some people find it very easy to say ‘I love you’ but in fact when having to act on their words –they can’t.
In that breath here is an observation – In the movie ‘A knights Tale’ the heartthrob tells the princess he will win the competition just for her! But the sister had her brains screwed on tight. As a knight it is in his blood and his nature to want to win the jousting tournament. He would not be sacrificing anything at all actually! So our clever beauty says “If want to show me how much you love me you would lose this match for me’ (major paraphrasing there! You see for Mr. Charming losing the match was not only detrimental to his ego, it could also fatally wound him……….To say the least he proved his love for her. So here is the observation. Words can be easy to say.. but they don’t matter. I have summed up that I don’t need those relationships based on word value. They don’t help me any and the sure do waste the breathe of the person saying them. So for their sake and for mine some things are much better gone unsaid. Like I said there are no regrets. That which has happened has happened and that which was done was done. That which was taken was taken and can never be returned – I have learnt that.

So from now on. It’s the words met by actions that determine where ‘we’ stand. I love being Single cos frankly I can learn most of this lesson from a distance. Its taken me a while to come up with this conclusion. As for those friends and family and others who are only but resounding empty vessels – Monica says it well when she says “I rather be alone then be unhappy”
As for myself I don’t ever want to be the person with words and no action so I commit myself to being true to my words.
I love deeply.
I love whole heartedly,
my currency weighs in all I have to give.
So that’s all I had on my mind for today
PS: Laxa read the blog titled ‘Datable’. Then ponder!

lol
Blondiwe

Purpose picked? Destineys' Diva?

12Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
15All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you. 16Only let us live up to what we have already attained.
Philipians 3v12-16


There’s this thing called purpose, many will spend their entire lives looking for it, many will follow something that they think is purpose to the grave. But to some of us our purpose is unfolded to us everyday. It lies in that only constant and certain thing in life - besides life and death. God!
In God I have found my identity. In God I have found the best person I can be for today.

As humans we were designed for a purpose, and wherether one believes in God or not everyone (ok! most people, I have met one person who went around in a little dark room called his life, thinking he was the purpose of everyone’s existence and that everyone was made to entertain him in on a mindless journey called life before he entered a utopian paradise where all his dreams would come true, needless to say a certain someone else very quickly switched on the lights – and now he sees the bigger picture - in the light!.)Everyone has that space or void inside of them that screams to be filled with a purpose and a reason to wake up in the morning (or in the cool of the day for the lucky!) It can only be filled by someone fulfilling, day by day what is set out for them. If one was called to sing for whatever reason, that purpose is fulfilled in going to musical college, and learning all there is about music, and finally manifested when those years at college pay off by landing a recording deal or something along those lines.

Now, there is also this misconception that a purpose in life has to be something big, and glamorous or formal. You don’t have to be a President to have a purpose. You don’t have to be a movie star; you don’t even have to be a platinum card holder. Sometimes the people who have discovered and tapped into their purpose are those who are just like you and me, like the primary school teacher who told you to explore your creativity and unknowingly unleashed a passion in you to fiddle with colours who knows you might be the next big thing the design world has been gugugaga over.

Its also fair to say that we don’t always know where our purpose in life will lead us, and for a majority of people their purpose does not became apparent to them easily, sometimes it requires one to look deeper into themselves, and really search out their souls to find that which has been set out for them. I love the way God does things because contrary to popular non-Christian belief God doesn’t normally call you to the most obscure things on this planet. Normally or should I say from my experiences and observation, God gives us desires and from those stem our calling. Again I will use the analogy of music (guess what I like!). If you have a passion for music don’t be surprised if God calls you to songwriting or if you are destined to become the next Cece Winans .

Um… there it is- the word I have been trying to avoid the whole day… destiny. And no I don’t think that there’s anything bad or wrong about it. Its just that in our modern day lingo it has become something of a mystical term something along the lines of foreseeing the future. I think destiny and purpose are really the same thing. My purpose in life is to be a blessing to others using my knowledge of the business world, or I can say I have been destined to be a blessing in the business world.

I would encourage everyone to seek their purpose or destiny in life. Sit down in a quite place in your world and your heart and really listen to what God has in store for you. He might not give you the whole plot (that would just spoil it!) but he will if you seek him lead you on your way.

As is normal for me to say. Dream big. Aim high.
I think the good thing about a person having reached rock bottom is they will never be scared to try for the fear of failing, they will try for the hope of succeeding. They have nothing to lose.

Love Me!

Brother/ Sister

I love writing poems coz for me poetry come flowetry, is a world where nothing is as it seems and sometimes whats said is exactly as is. So here goes my attempt at conveying something that is close to my heart.

Brother / Sister
Brother be gentle, brother be kind, brother be true.
Brother don’t give her another reason to doubt you.
Once hurt - twice shy, twice hurt – brother don’t let this get worse.
Brother don’t steal her dreams, they are already shattered.

Brother she didn’t know you but you made it a point that she never forgets you.
Brother be careful, brother be wise
Brother I hope you got a good look at her, cause like that - you will never see her again!
Brother get on your knees, brother say please…
Brother you stole her precious
And you know you will never give it back.

Sister be strong, sister be kind, sister don’t let him get to you.
Sister he can take all that is tangible from you, but he can never have you.
Sister you are strong, and sister don’t get me wrong there is no reason to hate him.
Sister get on your knees, Sister pray for him please
Sister he doesn’t deserve you
Sister he doesn’t deserve your tears
And you know you will survive, you will get back on your high heels.

The battle of the wills.
The taking of what isn’t yours,
The redeeming of what is left.
The breaking of fragile thing,
The rising up of a strong sister who has a new song to sing


Zamezinhle
Mar 07

Boy, do I have news for you!

Boy, do I have news for you!

You know, someone asked me how to stay positive when everything around you seems to be going amiss?
Well I don’t confess to being a professor on this but from my experiences I have concluded that;
Firstly we are living in a “self” obsessed world. “Everything is about me,’ “Life is so unfair to me”. Well I have blogged about this before, that as much as the person we look at in the mirror in the morning might just be a vision too gorgeous for anyone to handle, life and everything that happens in it is not necessarily about us at all… Sorry if I‘ve blown a few egos.
Once we stop thinking that everything is about us we might just take most things less personally and therefore we will be hurt by much less.
Have you noticed how you seem to be able to give your friend advice about something – and this might come as a surprise but your advice in turn works out! Then you go through the same thing and no matter what your friend tells you about the advice you gave them, the response you give is ‘you don’t understand, this is not the same, this is like 10 times worse!” sound familiar?
Ha ha ! Well the reason it seems so different when it happens to you is because you are emotionally involved in it. That’s why I say when you start realizing that its not about you and no the world isn’t out to get you, you generally have a more realistic view on problems and might also find solutions to them yourselves – no shrinks involved!
Another way I think works for me is when I realize that, as pitiful as I might be for myself someone out there went through the same thing and got over it. Also the fact that there is someone out there who is going through so much worse.
For example when you think, “Oh no! I feel like I have no friends anymore’- remember the person who has no family anymore.
When you feel like “ oh hats I don’t have money for church camp and I haven’t been for years” remember the person who has no money for food
When you feel like” oh crumbs I can’t pass this exam I am so stressed’ remember the person who cant even afford to go to university.
So in closing I have to say this though, there is nothing wrong with going through a rough time, as long as you go through it and overcame it.
We need to be more open about our problems look around us and we will see how many people are going through the same thing or worse, be encouraged by them and in turn be an encouragement to someone else. There have been many times when I’ve had a rough day and I arrive at Mission McCord’s (hospital visitations ministry) and I leave inspired because I have met people with health problems too great for me to fathom but they still muster up a smile.
Life isn’t so bad.
My gogo(grandmother) use to say “the wrinkles on my face might tell of my many struggles, but the smile on your face tells of the other more sweeter half of my life. One that I have enjoyed every minute of planting into. You see rolling in the mud isn’t so bad, cos afterwards you can have lots of fun hosing it all off.
So I say to you ‘When the going gets tough – walk tall and hold you head up high. That way the mud on the floor won’t drag you down. And the sky might make you realise how high you can still get, and the other people on your level might just follow in your footsteps’

lots of love
Me!

Time flies

The song playing is Lord lift us up where we belong.
The line I am hearing is " time goes by, no time to cry.
Time's you and I, alive today"

Time flies

Time is that one thing that once lost can never be regained.
Time is what makes the world tick. Time is something that we seem to need more and more as we grow.
To my mother – more time needed to clean my room
To the lecture – more time needed for assignments
To the boss – more time needed for deadlines

Ok so you get the point…
One thing I have come to realised, time is quite the demon in our lives, we either spend time worrying over how to manage it, or spend time wasting it.
Sometimes we get so over consumed with things that make us seem continuously busy, like arranging the already neat pictures on the wall!
Some how we need to learn to manage our time more efficiently. All of us - myself included. Strangely enough though, the things that most consume our time are not unnecessary things. I have been trying to teach myself lately that although I would love to do everything that comes across my path – I can’t! (Time wise that is). There are only 24 hours in a day. 8 hrs are spent at work. At least 8 hrs are spent sleeping (absolute minimum!). 2 hrs are spent eating and preparing meals (at the least!) 1 hr on travel from point A to B, the rest of the 5 hrs some of us have to study!
So this is where priorities come into place. Finding that stuff which is important and doing it first before anything else… I have had to learn this lesson the hard way. So take this piece of friendly advice and use it. Keep track of it! Make use of it!

With love
Me!

So sick

So sick…

Ok! so I know that’s the title to a song but that’s exactly how I feel right now…
I feel like death warmed up, I feel like I have been whipped by a tornado and then slam dunked into a frenzy. I feel like mush doing summersaults…
They call it the flu and sinusitis but I call it furious pain driving a woman to insanity

I cant think of any other way to describe how I feel…
and now I’m going home

Adious