laying it down!

There is no day better than today for rhythmn and rhyme
Poetry and flowetry
there's no day better than today for imagination overide
Conservation subside
lets lay it down for the world to enjoy
to show love to those that our charms employ
I'm done with the rhyming ..Now I 'm gonna lay it like a brick
They aint gonna know what made my head tick
When i'm through with this
they wont be calling me a chick...
Word!!

As for me and my house................

As for me and my house we will ………..Live

Life is the gift of love the gift of healing

The gift of sharing and the gift of caring

Life truly lived means I have to learn to forgive.

Life is me …naturally


As for me and my house we will……….. Love

Love is seeing the worst but cherishing the best

Love is the extra hand the extra time

Love is the reason behind this rhyme

Love is not just a feeling one cant express




As for me and my house we will……….. Laugh

Laugh at the memories created

Laugh at the lessons learnt

Laugh at life , laugh at love

Laugh coz it holds back the tears




As for me and my house we will…..

Live like we never lived , just because life is worth living

Love like there's no tomorrow just in case there isn't

Laugh like its not even just to hold back the tears…




So to life, love and laughter we splurge ourselves

Cos to anything else we would be slaves,

And that we are not! and should never be

We are free…

Even in our misery

We live, we love , we laugh

And life goes on..

So we have no choice but rock on!

Cos we can…

Who paints the sky blue?

Who paints the sky blue?


ever hue that kisses the sky
my every move that splashes the dye
my ever emotion expressed
across the sky my choices are stretched
my every thought or dream ever dreamt

who paints the sky blue
its me. its you
with every move we imitate
with every word that emanates
with every emotion left derelict
across the sky.. our view..
our every expectation...
the sky is so blue
just because we know it to be true

The sky is our world
created by you and I
It’s here we live and where we will die
the sky is our expectation
our limitation
our own creation

We paint the sky blue.
You and I.

For the Sake of Sanity

This is for a lady close to my heart,
This is my way of showing my empathy… I am not too good with saying things out loud sometimes but I have found my voice with a pen and a paper in my hand, I pray you will understand…


For the Sake of Sanity

For the sake of Sanity I chose not to cry
I chose not to die,
For the sake of sanity I forget that day
And I continue to sincerely pray,
For the sake of sanity I close my eyes as a tear drops
I bow lift my head and think of mountain tops,
For the sake of sanity I work hard
And I press so hard…
I nearly break this lead
Honestly- some things are easier said,

Have faith, tomorrow will be a better day
I know that’s the right thing to say,
But is it really?
For all the pain, for all the drain
As thinking is too tiring,
And those invasive tears now piling…
A puddle on your lap
Only time has the switch for the raging tap…

For the sake of sanity I chose to smile
To put a ray of sunshine on your dial,
For the sake of sanity I chose to love
Just as our heavenly father up above,
I choose to live, and to forgive

For the sake of sanity I chose to write
And with a pen and paper to fight the fight, (the battle of wills inside me)
I chose to exercise my right…
To remain silent… we know that there is a higher power who will take our stand
For now... it’s for me to sit down
And simply hold your hand…

The only other thing I can say besides the words I wrote in this poem is the old children’s Sunday school song…

“He’s got the whole world in his hands….”

Another Marilyn Manroe

Oh man…

See her, uh huh…

High heels clicking on the side walk

Hair swish swaying with the wind

Smile as bright as the sun

Voice as charming as breaking waters



Watch her as she gathers her bellowing dress around her legs

Scandalous…..

Watch her as she brings out her charm

Dazzling them out of their socks

Watch her as she salutes them with a wave

They resistance crumbles




Oh man…

See her, Um mmh

Sneakers bouncing off the pavement

Braids swish swaying to the beat

Smile as bright as the sun

Voice as harmonious, rhythmical as the drums




Watch her as she bumps to the beat

Youngstaz!

Watch her as she gathers the crowds

Wowing them with her soundz

Getting them into a dancing frenzy

Watch her as she salutes them with a 'Holla!"

The crowd roars….




She is the Goddess of her time

The reason behind every rhyme

She is the life that resounds deep within

She is the memory that will forever live



She is the Diva

She is the Sista

She is me…


Or maybe…

Just another Marilyn Monroe

Today you died!

This is for those who woke up one morning and realiesd it was over,
There is life after death has come and gone... live on!



Today you died...

Yesterday you had a chance,
Yesterday you could have had it all,
Yesterday you could have loved me,
Yesterday was a good day you know,
Yesterday you could have…
Yesterday you should have…
You didn’t


Today you looked at me for the last time,
Today you saw my tears for the last time,
Today you hurt me for the last time,
Today you took your last breath in my life and you left,
Today you where cremated in the burning flames of my hurt ,
Your ashes where shed far behind me,
Today I kissed you goodbye… You didn’t kiss me back

Tomorrow will be a new day
Tomorrow will be a good one
Tomorrow I will smile
Tomorrow there will be no resurrection
Tomorrow you won’t be there
Tomorrow there will be new hope for me
Tomorrow my life will go on

I am not surprised, because…
Today you died!

The Chic Diva Welcomes You

Below is a poem I wrote quite a while ago now, last year to be precise.
Its when i first realised what a big part of my life self expression played. Straight after writtingthis i painted what is probably one of the best painting i have ever painted...
here i realise who i am and who i seem to be... wel lets just say that we all grow to learn more about ourselves everyday.
I feel I am correct to say i have fallen in love with me. Thats probably the best thing someone can do for themselves.

So with this simple poem I give a big up to the music that inspires us, the voices that teach us, the beats that move us and last US. We are more than just perfect versus over tyt beats....


The Chic Diva Welcomes You

Welcome to the Afrocentric Cosmos
This is a queendom, a domain of royal rule
Herein resides a Princess, a Diva
Welcome to the land where African meets Euro
The perfect balance of both
Which had bought forth a child
A symbol of her generation
A tragedy of the previous

Herein lies a testimony once scorned
But now radiates in the joy freely given

Herein lies a something waiting to emerge into a big thing
Embrace her for she loves you
She loves you as she too is loved

Enter into a land where colour denotes bright hues
Of green, yellow, orange, pink
Where black and white where simply the main ingredients to a grey
Welcome to the land that loves purity
And doesn’t only pay lip service to it

Welcome to the land that sees women of virtue
Arise from children of suffering
A land that sees joy and love ooze from a war torn generation

I am the land of which I speak
I am the wound that’s healed
I welcome you to me because I love you

I am the Chic Diva that welcomes you

Mind Games #1:BREATHE

Here is the beauty of poetry once again, that which is said is not always what is. but that which is said is also - just that!

Mind Games #1: BREATHE


Hello? Hello?
Any body there?
What is this place?
Of shattered hope?
Of broken hearts?
It’s so cold here, and it stinks of fear

Hello? Hello?
Anybody here?
Why am I here?
Where is my home?
Scattered memories, and dusty smiles

To this place I sure don’t belong!
Can’t breathe!

Where are the windows here?
Where is the exit here?
This is not claustrophobic fun…

Come on! Someone
Where is the sun?
I am choking, choking
This place is so familiar…
NO!
This place is so strange…


In the dusty labyrinth of my body, I am trapped; life doesn’t live here any more,
I need to BREATHE!

Zamezinhle'07

Just read!

Speak Out!
I know I haven’t written in a week. But I didn’t want to subject you to something written out of need to write it had to be for a reason. Today I woke up and I had a very good reason to write. I have had a lot of things on my mind lately…..
(what’s new! )

So often we know what we want in life. We know where we want to go and we think we know how we are going to get there. So in my thinking lately I realised that I actually don’t have myself psyched out to the core. There is a lot about myself I am actually still trying to discover. Not that I am insecure or anything, Its just that there is a lot about myself that I am learning. I unconsciously realised this when I first started putting my thoughts to paper. Read my profile “Who am I”.
I am constantly growing and changing everyday – for the better. Everyday I go to sleep and I have learnt something new from my experiences gone by. Lately I have taken on more responsibility of things that happen in my life. I decided I don’t want to be the damsel who everything bad in life happened to in life and never quite got over it. I cant blame the world for all the rubbish it has thrown my way, ( I cant dwell on it forever and not make anything of my self because of it. Then it would have ‘power’ over me), just like I can’t blame anyone for some of the wrong decisions I have made in the past. I don’t regret any relationships- I have only learnt from them. I have learnt that true friends are people who love you not only with their words but with their actions. Some people find it very easy to say ‘I love you’ but in fact when having to act on their words –they can’t.
In that breath here is an observation – In the movie ‘A knights Tale’ the heartthrob tells the princess he will win the competition just for her! But the sister had her brains screwed on tight. As a knight it is in his blood and his nature to want to win the jousting tournament. He would not be sacrificing anything at all actually! So our clever beauty says “If want to show me how much you love me you would lose this match for me’ (major paraphrasing there! You see for Mr. Charming losing the match was not only detrimental to his ego, it could also fatally wound him……….To say the least he proved his love for her. So here is the observation. Words can be easy to say.. but they don’t matter. I have summed up that I don’t need those relationships based on word value. They don’t help me any and the sure do waste the breathe of the person saying them. So for their sake and for mine some things are much better gone unsaid. Like I said there are no regrets. That which has happened has happened and that which was done was done. That which was taken was taken and can never be returned – I have learnt that.

So from now on. It’s the words met by actions that determine where ‘we’ stand. I love being Single cos frankly I can learn most of this lesson from a distance. Its taken me a while to come up with this conclusion. As for those friends and family and others who are only but resounding empty vessels – Monica says it well when she says “I rather be alone then be unhappy”
As for myself I don’t ever want to be the person with words and no action so I commit myself to being true to my words.
I love deeply.
I love whole heartedly,
my currency weighs in all I have to give.
So that’s all I had on my mind for today
PS: Laxa read the blog titled ‘Datable’. Then ponder!

lol
Blondiwe

Purpose picked? Destineys' Diva?

12Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
15All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you. 16Only let us live up to what we have already attained.
Philipians 3v12-16


There’s this thing called purpose, many will spend their entire lives looking for it, many will follow something that they think is purpose to the grave. But to some of us our purpose is unfolded to us everyday. It lies in that only constant and certain thing in life - besides life and death. God!
In God I have found my identity. In God I have found the best person I can be for today.

As humans we were designed for a purpose, and wherether one believes in God or not everyone (ok! most people, I have met one person who went around in a little dark room called his life, thinking he was the purpose of everyone’s existence and that everyone was made to entertain him in on a mindless journey called life before he entered a utopian paradise where all his dreams would come true, needless to say a certain someone else very quickly switched on the lights – and now he sees the bigger picture - in the light!.)Everyone has that space or void inside of them that screams to be filled with a purpose and a reason to wake up in the morning (or in the cool of the day for the lucky!) It can only be filled by someone fulfilling, day by day what is set out for them. If one was called to sing for whatever reason, that purpose is fulfilled in going to musical college, and learning all there is about music, and finally manifested when those years at college pay off by landing a recording deal or something along those lines.

Now, there is also this misconception that a purpose in life has to be something big, and glamorous or formal. You don’t have to be a President to have a purpose. You don’t have to be a movie star; you don’t even have to be a platinum card holder. Sometimes the people who have discovered and tapped into their purpose are those who are just like you and me, like the primary school teacher who told you to explore your creativity and unknowingly unleashed a passion in you to fiddle with colours who knows you might be the next big thing the design world has been gugugaga over.

Its also fair to say that we don’t always know where our purpose in life will lead us, and for a majority of people their purpose does not became apparent to them easily, sometimes it requires one to look deeper into themselves, and really search out their souls to find that which has been set out for them. I love the way God does things because contrary to popular non-Christian belief God doesn’t normally call you to the most obscure things on this planet. Normally or should I say from my experiences and observation, God gives us desires and from those stem our calling. Again I will use the analogy of music (guess what I like!). If you have a passion for music don’t be surprised if God calls you to songwriting or if you are destined to become the next Cece Winans .

Um… there it is- the word I have been trying to avoid the whole day… destiny. And no I don’t think that there’s anything bad or wrong about it. Its just that in our modern day lingo it has become something of a mystical term something along the lines of foreseeing the future. I think destiny and purpose are really the same thing. My purpose in life is to be a blessing to others using my knowledge of the business world, or I can say I have been destined to be a blessing in the business world.

I would encourage everyone to seek their purpose or destiny in life. Sit down in a quite place in your world and your heart and really listen to what God has in store for you. He might not give you the whole plot (that would just spoil it!) but he will if you seek him lead you on your way.

As is normal for me to say. Dream big. Aim high.
I think the good thing about a person having reached rock bottom is they will never be scared to try for the fear of failing, they will try for the hope of succeeding. They have nothing to lose.

Love Me!

Brother/ Sister

I love writing poems coz for me poetry come flowetry, is a world where nothing is as it seems and sometimes whats said is exactly as is. So here goes my attempt at conveying something that is close to my heart.

Brother / Sister
Brother be gentle, brother be kind, brother be true.
Brother don’t give her another reason to doubt you.
Once hurt - twice shy, twice hurt – brother don’t let this get worse.
Brother don’t steal her dreams, they are already shattered.

Brother she didn’t know you but you made it a point that she never forgets you.
Brother be careful, brother be wise
Brother I hope you got a good look at her, cause like that - you will never see her again!
Brother get on your knees, brother say please…
Brother you stole her precious
And you know you will never give it back.

Sister be strong, sister be kind, sister don’t let him get to you.
Sister he can take all that is tangible from you, but he can never have you.
Sister you are strong, and sister don’t get me wrong there is no reason to hate him.
Sister get on your knees, Sister pray for him please
Sister he doesn’t deserve you
Sister he doesn’t deserve your tears
And you know you will survive, you will get back on your high heels.

The battle of the wills.
The taking of what isn’t yours,
The redeeming of what is left.
The breaking of fragile thing,
The rising up of a strong sister who has a new song to sing


Zamezinhle
Mar 07

Boy, do I have news for you!

Boy, do I have news for you!

You know, someone asked me how to stay positive when everything around you seems to be going amiss?
Well I don’t confess to being a professor on this but from my experiences I have concluded that;
Firstly we are living in a “self” obsessed world. “Everything is about me,’ “Life is so unfair to me”. Well I have blogged about this before, that as much as the person we look at in the mirror in the morning might just be a vision too gorgeous for anyone to handle, life and everything that happens in it is not necessarily about us at all… Sorry if I‘ve blown a few egos.
Once we stop thinking that everything is about us we might just take most things less personally and therefore we will be hurt by much less.
Have you noticed how you seem to be able to give your friend advice about something – and this might come as a surprise but your advice in turn works out! Then you go through the same thing and no matter what your friend tells you about the advice you gave them, the response you give is ‘you don’t understand, this is not the same, this is like 10 times worse!” sound familiar?
Ha ha ! Well the reason it seems so different when it happens to you is because you are emotionally involved in it. That’s why I say when you start realizing that its not about you and no the world isn’t out to get you, you generally have a more realistic view on problems and might also find solutions to them yourselves – no shrinks involved!
Another way I think works for me is when I realize that, as pitiful as I might be for myself someone out there went through the same thing and got over it. Also the fact that there is someone out there who is going through so much worse.
For example when you think, “Oh no! I feel like I have no friends anymore’- remember the person who has no family anymore.
When you feel like “ oh hats I don’t have money for church camp and I haven’t been for years” remember the person who has no money for food
When you feel like” oh crumbs I can’t pass this exam I am so stressed’ remember the person who cant even afford to go to university.
So in closing I have to say this though, there is nothing wrong with going through a rough time, as long as you go through it and overcame it.
We need to be more open about our problems look around us and we will see how many people are going through the same thing or worse, be encouraged by them and in turn be an encouragement to someone else. There have been many times when I’ve had a rough day and I arrive at Mission McCord’s (hospital visitations ministry) and I leave inspired because I have met people with health problems too great for me to fathom but they still muster up a smile.
Life isn’t so bad.
My gogo(grandmother) use to say “the wrinkles on my face might tell of my many struggles, but the smile on your face tells of the other more sweeter half of my life. One that I have enjoyed every minute of planting into. You see rolling in the mud isn’t so bad, cos afterwards you can have lots of fun hosing it all off.
So I say to you ‘When the going gets tough – walk tall and hold you head up high. That way the mud on the floor won’t drag you down. And the sky might make you realise how high you can still get, and the other people on your level might just follow in your footsteps’

lots of love
Me!

Time flies

The song playing is Lord lift us up where we belong.
The line I am hearing is " time goes by, no time to cry.
Time's you and I, alive today"

Time flies

Time is that one thing that once lost can never be regained.
Time is what makes the world tick. Time is something that we seem to need more and more as we grow.
To my mother – more time needed to clean my room
To the lecture – more time needed for assignments
To the boss – more time needed for deadlines

Ok so you get the point…
One thing I have come to realised, time is quite the demon in our lives, we either spend time worrying over how to manage it, or spend time wasting it.
Sometimes we get so over consumed with things that make us seem continuously busy, like arranging the already neat pictures on the wall!
Some how we need to learn to manage our time more efficiently. All of us - myself included. Strangely enough though, the things that most consume our time are not unnecessary things. I have been trying to teach myself lately that although I would love to do everything that comes across my path – I can’t! (Time wise that is). There are only 24 hours in a day. 8 hrs are spent at work. At least 8 hrs are spent sleeping (absolute minimum!). 2 hrs are spent eating and preparing meals (at the least!) 1 hr on travel from point A to B, the rest of the 5 hrs some of us have to study!
So this is where priorities come into place. Finding that stuff which is important and doing it first before anything else… I have had to learn this lesson the hard way. So take this piece of friendly advice and use it. Keep track of it! Make use of it!

With love
Me!

So sick

So sick…

Ok! so I know that’s the title to a song but that’s exactly how I feel right now…
I feel like death warmed up, I feel like I have been whipped by a tornado and then slam dunked into a frenzy. I feel like mush doing summersaults…
They call it the flu and sinusitis but I call it furious pain driving a woman to insanity

I cant think of any other way to describe how I feel…
and now I’m going home

Adious

When I die

When I die…

Ha, ha, ha that must have been the most riveting title I have ever written (Ok, maybe not!) So getting to the point, I finally decided what I want written on my tombstone when I die…

‘Here lies the sista who gave all and held back nothing. The one who lived life truly making a difference’

Quite big boots for my 18year old boots to fill… well lets just say I take it all or nothing. I don’t like being a mediocre person. So you will want to know what I mean by my words…

Why live life with nothing to show for it at the end? Why live life and only have offspring, a car, and a house to show for it at the end? Why live life purely trying to make ends meet? Why live life just for the sake of living?
I want to live life having made a difference to someone’s life, having left an impact in a community of people who will truly appreciate it. I want to live a life with no regrets. A life that when I get to heaven I will not have to search in a bag of useless material achievements that only looked good on paper with a shiny crest at the end, I want to live a life worth living.

Our generation is becoming very consumerist where it’s all about ‘me’, what ‘I’ can get out of it. Notice the thinking… ‘Me’, ‘I’, and generally ‘me’ again. My vision is it’s based around improving myself and pulling other people up as I go along.
I wish every one would catch up to this vision coz if we ( as in my generation) stop tramping on each other in our attempt to make it to the top then maybe we can improve our country, each other and we would all be happier for it.

In ending, it’s important that we look beyond that which we see in the scope life as we know it but look beyond that which is expected of us, beyond that which is normal and reach out for our visions and dreams. Its reality stories that are most astounding, imaginary normally stays just that- imaginary.
I will say it again, to those who do not carry my vision it might not make much sense but to the person who will be at the receiving end of my vision it will make the world of a difference...

Dream on dreamers don’t let anybody tell you any different!

Lots of love… Sistagirl

Get a friend! Getta chit chat!

Get a friend! Getta chit chat!

I can think of very few things that I would rather do after a hard day at work.
Getting on that telecommunication device called a cell phone and ringing my girlz!

Who else can be that voice
- like the one you sometimes hear within yourself and you try to ignore?
Who else tells you exactly what you don’t want to hear exactly when you need to hear it
Well that’s my girls for you
We have a bond that’s thicker than blood,
And to be real to ourselves we don’t have to profess to be from any hood
We share good and bad times
And we are very much a tailor made family.
One thing I can say about friends is that they are good for you - especially in large doses
Friends should trust each other
Friends should look out for one another
Friends get you talking and when you do you get to know each other more and more
Midge, Fafie, and Bush (the homegirlz)
Then there’s KB, and Jboo (my vanilla sisters – I’m their dollop of chocolate on the side)
What more can I ask for.
Friendships are chit chat sessions that have withstood the test of time
Friendships are what we do between life and death
Friendships are for real – if they aren’t, well then, they’re not friendships

Have a friend, but most importantly be a friend!

If it doesn't kill you

"If it doesn’t kill you it can only make you stronger"

So many times we ask God why.
Why did this have to happen to me?
Why me? Well I might just have the answer.
Quite often the whys’? we ask are because we are going through something tough and we feel that life just isn’t fair.
Well do I have news for you…
Be grateful for your hard experiences firstly cos God will never give you a burden bigger than you can handle. When we going through a hard patch we need to go through it deal with it and get over hence we arrive at the other end of the passage stronger than when we entered it.
Going through a horrible experience and getting over it can help you help someone whois not as strong as yourself get through it at a later stage.
Hardship is like a bug. It will make you sick , but then your body builds a remedy for it and then slowly you recover. After that your body will always know how to handle it where it to enter your body again.
Be encouraged in the fact that you are strong for overcoming, that hardship you overcame
,unfortunately someone else couln’t. they thought it was too hard.

I asked God why we have to go through these hard things and the answer was quite clear for me.
In me overcoming my circumstance God was Glorified. Through him we are more than conquerors. In overcoming my circumstance I add another coat of steel to armour.

Here’s my last words of encouragement for today,
Don’t look so sad, Don’t look so down
Look up and hold your chin up high.
Today you may be walking in mud trying to keep yourself together
But tomorrow you will be flying high and you will be anothers hero.
Be happy rejoice in today because tomorrow it will be no more
and yesterdays failures will be a thing of the past and lessons for the next day.
You are strong, you will survive
I did.
You will.

HOPEFUL

TWISTA (f/ Faith Evans) LYRICS Hope
[Verse 1 (Twista)]I wish the way I was living could stop, serving rocks,
Knowing the cops is hot when I'm on the block,
And IWish my brother woulda made bail,
So I won't have to travel 6 hours to see him in jail,
And IWish that my grandmother wasn't sick,
Or that we would just come up on some stacks and hit a lick,
And I (I wish)Wish my homies wouldn't have to suffer,
When the streets get the upper hand on us and we lose a brother,
And IWish I could go deep in a zone,
And lift the spirits of the world with the words with in this song,
And I (I wish)Wish I could teach a soul to fly,
Take away the pain out cha hands and help you hold them hi,
And IWish my hommie Butch was still alive
And on the day of his death we had never took that ride,
And I (I wish)Wish God could protect us from the wrong
So that all the solders that were sent over seas come home
We will never break, though they devastate, we shall motivate,
And we gotta pray, all we got is faith.
Instead of thinking about who gonna die to day
,The Lord is gonna help you feel better, so you ain't gotta cry today.
Sit at the light so long,
And then we gotta move straight forward, cuz we fight so strong,
So when right go wrong,
Just say a little prayer, get ya money man, life go on!!!
Let's HOPE!

[Chorus (Faith Evans)]
Cuz I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use itLet it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay.cause we hopeful

[Verse 2 (Twista)]I wish that you could show some love,
Instead of hatin so much when you see some other people commin up (I wish)
I wish I could teach the world to sing,
Watch the music and have 'em trippin of the joy I bring, (shiit)
I wish that we could hold hands,Listen instead of dissin lessons from a grown man,
And I (I wish)Wish the families that lack, but got love, get some stacks
Brand new shack and a lack that's on dubs,
And IWish we could keep achieving wonders,
See the vision of the world through the eyes of Stevie Wonder, (you feel me) (I wish)
And I hope all the kids eat,And don't nobody in my family see six feet, (ya dig)
I hope them mothers stain' strong,
You can make it whether you wit him or your mans gone,
And I (I wish)Wish I could give every celly some commissary,
And the po po bring the heat on them priest like they did R. Kelly,
And IWish that DOC could scream again
And bullets could reverse so Pac and Biggie breath again, (shit) (I wish)
Then one day they could speak again,
I wish that we only saw good news every time we look at CNN,
I wish that we could never get the blues,
Wish I could bring back the people that died,
Eddy tooI wish that we could walk a path, stay doin the right thing
Hustle hard so the kids maintain up in the game,
Let's HOPE

[Chorus (Faith Evans)]
Cuz I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay.cause we hopeful

[Verse 3 (Twista)]
Wish the earth wasn't so apocalyptic,
I try to spread my message to the world the best way I can give it,
We can make it always so optimistic,
If you don't listen gotta live my life the best way I can live it,
I pray for justice when we go to court,
Wish it was all good so the country never even went to war
Why can't we kick it and just get em on,
And in the famous words of Mr. King "Why can't we all just get along",
Or we can find a better way to shop and please,
And IHope we find a better way to cop a keys,
And IWish everybody would just stop and freeze,
And ask way are we fulfillin these downfalls and prophecies,
You can be wrong if it's you doubting,
With the faith of a mustard seed you can move mountains,
And only the heavenly father and ease the hurt,
Just let it go and keep prayin on your knees in church!!
And let's HOPE
[Chorus (Faith Evans) X2]
Cuz I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay.
cause we hopeful

Women of virtue

This is for all those females I know who keep on holding the fort
besides all odds...be strong,
Find your identity in who you are not in your circumstance
Find your identity in who God has designed you to be...


Woman Of Virtue

She is a woman of virtue and a daughter of eve,
She has been through lifes ridicule, barely even finished school
She has been through suppression – She has felt depression
She is a daughter of eve, the ideal woman
A woman of today and tomorrow
Who has been through yesterday
Oh hail the woman who bore your children-
Your children who hold the future
Made from mans side to be close to him
That one rib that became the backbone of all ages
That constant figure of strength
Oh hail the women who gathered her tears, and yours
And provided a spring of life
This woman that is in her, her, her, me and you.

Zamezinhle ‘2007

Memories of Gogo

This letter is for my gran ma…
Gogo if there is internet in heaven this is for you…

Gogo,
I see you sitting there, that dark brown image in the heavens,
Your face radiant with peaceful glory.

How hard you toiled whilst still on this earth
How big was your hart to carry us all
How deep were your wrinkles so full of wisdom
How big was your smile full of promises
How soft was your voice full of encouragement
How strong your hands that disciplined me into who I am

Remember TV bars when they were still red and blue
Remember the TV you broke with your shoe
Remember jelly tots -With sugar on top
Remember me not wanting the hat for my picture – nor did I wear a top
Remember you singing me lullaby’s – out of tune oh I did not care
Remember my embarrassing moments – oh with your church friends you had to share
I remember…

Sometimes I wish you were still here
Sometimes I can smell your scent on my jersey
Sometimes I can see you in the reflection in my mirror
Sometimes you are in my dreams

Things have happened since you have gone
Things have happened that make me wish you were still here

You always told me to be a strong woman
You forgot o tell me womanhood was so hard,
uZamezihnle has had to grow into a woman not wholly by choice
I have tried my hardest to be the woman of your vision, the woman with her voice
Maybe I need to settle to be the girl of my dreams - for now anyway
Maybe I can put womanhood away for a little longer…

There’s this picture of you on my desk
You are wearing your uniform… (Remember red marching soldiers on their way to church)
I see in your eyes a world of experiences, not all of them easy
I see in your brow sweat, sweat that I saw on mine yesterday
Maybe we are not all that different.
Gogo you were a woman of overcoming
Well maybe I see me in you

For all your love I will be the woman you had in your vision I would be
The gift you gave of Zamezinhle ( try my beauty, try more beautiful things)
Hold on tight Gogo.
The heavens are about to shake with the conviction in my heart
The world has never seen this before …
Thank you for the vision that will lead me straight home
Thank you for the love you gave me…
Lalakhahle Ngwane ‘lihle ( rest in peace beautiful Ngwane)
In my memories you will always be…

‘Zamezinhle 2007’

Sole Sista ( Soul Sista)

Sole Sista (vol 2)

Ebony cream they say of her skin
Pearly white they say of her teeth
A ray of sunshine they say of her smile
A crystal clear fountain they say of her laughter

Yet what say they of her inner most treasuries
Those catacombs nested deep near her heart?

They see not the crimson blood neatly covered wound inflicted at close range
They see not the wide expanse of endless galaxies in her eyes that sparkle – but sparkle of tears
They see not the tattered torn history book inside the gold casket

An hour glass they say of figure
Frivolous they say of her mischievousness
Petite they say of her sneeze
Warm they say of her embrace

Yet what say they of her inner most treasuries
Those mysteries buried in hidden labyrinths?

Those tears are of pain not gain
Those ringing bells are of goodbye not hello
Those rays of sunshine are heavens glory peeping through wanting a glimpse, feeling pity for…

Oh they say she’s a Soul Sista!
Viva a la Diva
Oh she’s a Sole Sista alright
Marilyn Monroe was a Diva too…
Sole Sista…

'Zamezinhle 2007'

Foolish Love

Love can be a real sucker sometimes...

Why is it that we love that one thing that we can't have,
That one thing we love well doesn't return it back..
love is a two way... you give - you take.

This song says it all when you have had enough...
It at this point where your heart is hurting so bad
and your head knows its time to let go...
Easier said than done, when you have reached the point of no return...

These are my last thoughts on this subject for now... thank you Murder Inc for saying it so well...

MURDER INC - FOOLISH
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby I don't know why ya treatin me so bad
You said you love me, no one above me
And I was all you had
And though my heart is beating for ya
I can't stop crying
I don't know how
I allow you to treat me this way and still i stay

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby I don't know why ya wanna do me wrong
See when I'm home, I'm all alone
And you were always gone
And boy, you know I really love you
I can't deny
I can't see how you could bring me to so many tears
after all these years

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
Oohhhhh
I trusted you, I trusted you
So sad, so sad
what love will make you do
all the things that we accept
be the things that we regret
too all of my ladies (ladies) feel me
c'mon sing wit me
See, when I get the strength to leave
You always tell me that you need me
And I'm weak cause I believe you
And I'm mad because I love you
So I stop and think that maybe
You can learn to appreciate me
Then it all remains the same that
You ain't never gonna change
(never gonna change, never gonna change)
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
Butm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby why you hurt me leave me and desert me
Boy I gave you all my heart
And all you do is tear it up
Looking out my window
Knowing that I should go
Even when I pack my bags
This something always hold me back.

My Favourite

Here is a poem written by some called Connie...
I love it...
Be inspired!


My Favorite Valentine
Once I had a Valentine that I loved so,
It said, "I love you and want you to know...Mine is a love that this world can't define,
I'd never leave you if you would be mine.
"Now I have a Valentine that I love more,
God said, "I love you,you're worth dying for...
Mine is a love that the world can't define,
I'll never leave you...now that you're Mine.
"--Connie".
"..He hath said,I will never leave thee,nor forsake thee."
(Hebrews 13:5b, KJV)

Will I be my Valentine?

Will I be my Valentine?

Of course it Valentines Day tomorrow…
I am a romantic of note…. (Daniel Steel, Lori Wick, Karen Kingsbury have nothing on me)
It would help were I paired up with someone who would reap the fruits of what would be delicious food and good company, but no I will be at home compiling a study regime for my degree cos I finally got my books today. So while the rest of the world has smoochy valentines dinners gazing longingly into their beloved’ eyes I will be gracing my hand over lightly glossed text books, and tasting only the fruit of my hard spent time when I pass at the end of the year.
But fear not - I am not bitter, my time will come and then the world will have competition. For now I will study hard, enjoy getting to know with myself and so when I finally meet my prince charming we will have no ‘do you think I am fat” only love, love and love.

Ecclesiastes 3
A Time for Everything
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

Love Me..

The song playing; If tomorrow never comes...

The song playing is – If tomorrow never comes

Death isn’t a very pretty subject…
But it’s a very definite part of life and living.
My uncle passed away last week Thursday and we are having his funeral tomorrow, it’s going to be hard on everybody at the funeral because not only will he be greatly missed but he was a single parent with a 6 year old son as well.
But his passing away has got me thinking if where I to die today would I be ready?
Um well… if I died right now I would have no problem because I know that I will be going to heaven. No doubt! but something makes me a bit uneasy still about the thought of dying today, I mean there are so many things I want to do before I die… I would like to have been married, and have a couple of kids, have established a fruitful business and after I have done something big for my family – lets not forget all Gods’ work that I still have in my heart to do.
Its scary to think that if I die today there are so many things I haven’t said and done that are important … today I am going to go to brotha X and tell him what I feel about brotha X and sista X being together… I am going to tell my two sisters how much I love them and I am going to draw out all my dreams in a book called ‘my book of possibilities’ and enjoy it as I start ticking the steps off as I move up. I want to live a life of no regrets cos, frankly life is too short! I am a dreamer of note, but what is the point of my existence if not to bring those dreams into fruition?
My lesson today is quite simple. Dream big, aim high – and then go out and do it!
There’s a song that goes (in English) ‘the treasures of this world will all stay in the grave’, “Amagugu alelizwe ayosale’matuneni!” And then there’s this - one the famous; ‘the great dreams of this world all lie nine feet under” – now I don’t want that for my dreams…
So I am off to make sure that my dreams come alive, although that means been faithful with the little I have now, for now that means that comforting the family by being there at the funeral tomorrow…
So enjoy the weekend, don’t forget to say and do what you have to..
Lotsa love

Me

Date-able?

Someone asked me today about my stance on dating… (Hmm hmmm…)

Well it’s not all that it plays out to be in the movies that’s for sure, its a lot more hard work than just roses and late night walks.
I just started reading a book called ‘I Kissed dating goodbye’ by Joshua Harris… After you hack through your preconceptions based on the title it is an excellent read on dating guidelines, but more importantly how ready are you to date?
I think (learning from my one experience and lots of other peoples’ as well) that dating should be a preparation for marriage, whats the point of knowing a member of the opposite sex ‘intimately’ (if I can call it that ) if you don’t want to spend forever with them.
Believe me when you are dating some one you ( should) get to know them really well, you get to know what they like and don’t like, they get to know you too. They share a part of themselves that they don’t share with other people; like their dreams, their thoughts, their feelings and visa versa. Now when this happens you are more than just friends the level above friendship – courtship.
You revel yourself over time to the other person. Now I call this ‘intimate’ because it’s just between the two of you. The ‘I love you’ and ‘ I miss you’ all this you don’t share with the rest of the world. Yes the rest of the world may see the fruits of your relationship such as the smiles, holding hands, etc, but they are not privy to your deeper connection.
Now imagine if you dated casually ( or whatever its called lately) you would be giving a piece of your heart to all those people who you date. Presuming you date 10 people before you get married that’s your heart minus 10 pieces and who knows how big the chunks where. What will you have to offer to your husband (or wife), a ‘hand-me-downs’ heart? Even worse you sleep with all the guys (or girls) you date, that is not much to give your partner.
What you share with you partner should be special, it should be intimate, mostly for me it needs to be God inspired. I want my husband to taste nothing the world has tasted from me. No one deserves the love and affection and all sorts that is instore for him.
Leslie Ludy gave this imagery in her book ‘Authentic Beauty’; (it paraphrased)
‘Imagine on your wedding night you have a beautiful day and then you and your loved one cross the threshold of your honeymoon suit…it’s a candle lit sensation with warm lights hovering all over, as your beloved puts you down you start smelling trash cans, and when you look at the corner of the room… are all your old flames calling your name, demanding a place in your special night cause well they have the same exposure to you as the person you just married.’ You see what should have been a beautiful night was spoiled by the stench and ‘presence’ of other people.
So for me, I am going to wait for what the world calls Mr. Right. I am not going to date a guy just for fun, or to pass time.
And for those who have crossed the line in their relationships with the opposite sex, there’s my favorite – New beginnings!
Make a conscious decision to stop the philandering, take a break from close relationships with the opposite for a while and take time out to learn about yourself more. I have noticed quite a lot with people I know that date to find that actually they need to break up with the person because they feel like they have changed! Well if they knew themselves before they got into the relationship they would not have had that problem now would they!
Dating is not a bad thing. But its been misused as a from of entertainment, and boredom killer. Lets get real, so many times when those relationships end someone gets hurt!
I want tot be a special gift for my husband. I want to be able to give him all the loving that he needs. No broken heart and definitely no rubbish lying around.
So lets us singletons take this time (while we have it!) to get to know ourselves. Mature ourselves and nuture our inner beauty. Then when if radiates outwords we wont have to search for the perfect one anyway, they will be drawn to the beauty that radiate from the inside out!

Winds of change

I love new beginnings!!!

Last night I chopped off my long braids and my long-ish hair, after it was chopped off there was no going back!
It felt quite weird, cos now there was no hair at all! I can now feel the breeze wisp lightly over my head.
I am all for change. Good change is very welcome by me, other change - well does one have a choice?


“The winds of change sing of songs of promise for a brighter tomorrow.
The winds of change carry dreams forward, slowly and steady
Woe is me and woe is you were the wind to stay still
Dreams would be still, promises could not be carried to reach us.
Love change and embrace her for she is a mover,
She takes you up although it might mean you have to stretch
Change, change, ChAnGe…
Always holds a promise for tomorrow...
For today…
For now... "

It might take a while till I get used to my new hairstyle, but I am loving it.
Next week I might dye it ginger or blonde, who knows, for now my eye is set on achieving what I have set out for today… tomorrow will come … tomorrow.

Monday!

Monday!
What is it about Monday that makes people miserable?
It’s all a mind thing I tell you…
I really enjoy Mondays’ – It’s a fresh start to a new week, another opportunity to make a good impression, a fresh page to doodle sweet memories, another chance to make a difference!
Ok so maybe it’s no match to a fantastic weekend, but one can’t live in play mode forever!
I love living a God inspired life cos I never know what to expect outside of today, I may make plans till forever but Gods plan always come first and you know what? - Its always a good thing.
“For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
I love the fact that no matter what I am going through, I am not alone, and that actually whatever I go through I can handle- cos he will never give me a load I can’t manage.
People ask me quite often why I always seem happy; they seem to think that I never have issues - believe you me, I have experienced more than most people my age! BUT its cos my existence doesn’t depend on me, God orchestrates every move, at the end no matter what happens as long as I don’t step outside of his plan I always know I am safe. Now don’t get me wrong that doesn’t mean that you wont go through hard times – it definitely isn’t a surefire way to have it easy but, I know that I am guaranteed coverage from the most priceless tracking body in our galaxy, the most fastest angelic-911 the fastest mayday response with immediate (anywhere)–side assistance. I am happy where I am. I am living in this world but not of world!
I just love that song;
“I get knocked down but get up again and nothing gonna keep me down”
So Monday or no Monday;
I am going to make the best of today, cos tomorrow may not be given to me…

Who am I?

"I am who I say I, I will be who I need to be!"

I am me, I am real, I am who I need to be (for today!)
That person I need to be is growing changing to be more like my king every day.
Every day there’s another memory that enters the puzzle –
when complete will be called my life.

I aspire to be the princess that God created me to be
The diva with a destiny
The soul sista with a big dream
The dreamer with a vision

I am on a mission

I know not what tomorrow holds for me
But this I do –
Whatever it is
I should be ready…

"I am who I say I am I will be who
I need to be, Let me be!"